Lol..

I think I should have stop viewing this blog anymore.
Just now I was reading the post that I've posted the past few months.
Can't imagine how I passed the tough times.
Can't imagine how I typed it out with my tears.
Can't imagine, how I take the pain alone.
Again, tears dropped when I was reading.

If you ask me whether can we still be friend?
My answer is " No"
It's not that I still love you, it's I don't know how to face you.
Can you, don't appear in my life anymore.
If you need help, yes, I will help you.
But it's just in the situation that sms/internet.
Not in real life, because..
I really don't want to see you anymore.
The last thing that I can do for you,
Is ...
I will be your listener forever.
This is the promised that I've given to you.

是时候成长了

之前的我， 很不甘愿
不甘愿就这么结束，不甘愿故事不在我掌握之中。
为了让我自己能放开，我不得不把所有错怪在你身上。
让我自己是多么的讨厌你，憎恨你。。
这些在kl的日子，人人看到的我，是个充满笑容，很开心的女生。
有谁会知道，我还是会偷偷的掉眼泪。。
我还是会听到伤心的歌就哭。
告诉自己说，没有人是为了某个人而活。
放开一个不属于自己的人，才可以找回自己。
我承认，我卸下了这个包袱，轻松很多。。开朗很多。
心存的，只是不甘心，不甘心付出却得不到我要的结局。

是时候成长了，
放下过去，才可以活得更好。
两个人在一起，就是互相满足对方。。
其中一方满足不了对方，离开是必然的。。
你没有错，既然我满足不了你。
你选择离开是对的。
我没有权利怪你。
至少我尽了我所能，做个在我能力范围内的好女友，
那就足够了。。
至少，我很用心的爱过你。。
那就足够了。。

放开双手，
各自寻找自己的幸福。。
我祝福你=)

回忆再次被掀开

我已经把你从msn,fb删除了。。
可是好笑的是。。
我偶尔还是会去search你的profile来看。。

我没有找你。。
可是每次你都会在你失落的时候sms我。。
我故作大方的和你谈天。。
可是每次都会谈到我心痛之处。。
我都会流着泪告诉你我的辛酸。。
我没关系的。。哭过就好了。。

请不要一直叫我找新的男友。。
我的心负荷不来。。
我的伤痕一直都还没愈合。。
我不知道我这些日子的欢笑是真实的，还是虚伪的。。
我真的不知道。。
我只知道，每当我想起你，我的眼泪还是会流下来。。
那个痛，我铭记于心。。

Further...and Futher..

This morning when I open fb in office..
I saw you posted something, but its in chinese...I can't read..
So when i reached home, I faster open fb and checked..
But it's too late, you already deleted your fb account.
Sigh, the only place where I can know your life has been removed.
I know that it's not my business anymore..

Sorry, I found out that I really cannot forgive you..
I felt that I'm revenging..
How to revenge? Revenge by letting you know my life is very much more better than last time..
I want to prove to you that without you my life is good..
I can live without you and you are not my only one.
I want to let you know that you are the one who lose something when we break up.
I just want to prove that it's all your fault.. =( ....

Hmmmm

Hmm..I miss you ..
I don't know why..
Last night when I'm clearing those msg in the inbox..
Saw back those old messages..
Flash back appeared in my mind..
It's not a dream, it's really happened between both of us..
The memories that only both of us know..

Haha, I thought I would never drop a single tear for you anymore..
But, last nite my tears dropped..
I don't know why..
Cried because I　still love you? or because I feel so wasted?
I don't know, and I　don't want to know..

Just want to let you know..
I live well..
Better than last time..
没有人说，没有谁就不能活下去。。。

Can't control

You posted sad things in fb..
You said you're sad..
And I purposely go and post it I'm happy..
Fun right?

Sigh, I thought I can do it..
I thought I can ignore everything from you
I thought I can don't care bout you anymore.
But I cannot control..
Your msn pm written something emo..
I start to worry...

Sigh, it's not my business anymore..
Just don't care bout it..ok?
Yeah, not my business anymore..

请不要再揭开我的伤疤

虽然我放得下。。
但并不代表我100%放的下。。
并不代表再次提起的时候我不会心痛。。
可能你们好奇，我们的分手原因。。
因为表面上看来，我们是那么的好。。
那是因为，我一直都在告诉别人他有多好。。
并不代表，我们没有心痛的回忆。。

今天在看爱情偶像剧 ‘下一站，幸福“
呵呵。。多么甜蜜。。
多么戏剧化。。
童话般的爱情故事。。
让我看得眼眶都热热的。。
醒醒吧。。现实生活中。。
是不可能发生的。。