Can't control

You posted sad things in fb..
You said you're sad..
And I purposely go and post it I'm happy..
Fun right?

Sigh, I thought I can do it..
I thought I can ignore everything from you
I thought I can don't care bout you anymore.
But I cannot control..
Your msn pm written something emo..
I start to worry...

Sigh, it's not my business anymore..
Just don't care bout it..ok?
Yeah, not my business anymore..

请不要再揭开我的伤疤

虽然我放得下。。
但并不代表我100%放的下。。
并不代表再次提起的时候我不会心痛。。
可能你们好奇，我们的分手原因。。
因为表面上看来，我们是那么的好。。
那是因为，我一直都在告诉别人他有多好。。
并不代表，我们没有心痛的回忆。。

今天在看爱情偶像剧 ‘下一站，幸福“
呵呵。。多么甜蜜。。
多么戏剧化。。
童话般的爱情故事。。
让我看得眼眶都热热的。。
醒醒吧。。现实生活中。。
是不可能发生的。。

证明

如果你问我，还为了这段感情伤心吗？
不了，我不伤心，有的只是可惜。。
如果你问我，能放的下他吗？
放了，有的只是回忆。。

我不会为了他自暴自弃。。
反而，人人都问我为什么不会露出伤心的样子。。
还问我，你是冷血的吗？
不，因为更难过的日子，我都熬过了。。
分手，只不过是解脱。。

我会证明给他，给身边的每一个人看。。
我会活的比以前更好。。
我会为了自己而活，不再为了谁而活。。
我会，找回自我。。
开开心心的，做回自己。。
不再被他操控我的喜怒哀乐。。
因为他没有权利这么做。。
因为。。这是我的生命。。

Doggie, I miss you :'(

I miss your doggie but not you..
Just now suddenly your msn window pop up..
You put your doggie's picture as your display picture..
It's a new picture..
I can see doggie :D

I still remember 2 years ago when I first time went your house..
I'm very afraid of your dog..
Until need someone to hold him and let me enter the house..
I tried to get nearer your dog, reduce my fear towards dog..
And finally, I don't scare of your dog anymore xD
Haha, cute dog ever ...
Really hope doggie can wear the collar that I bought for him :(.....

其实

其实，
我并没有很大方。。
我并没有真的那么容易放的下。。

其实，
我真的很想把你从msn, fb删除掉。。
可是没有这个勇气。。
很怕再也看不到你的消息。。
可是。。这是唯一的办法。。

我希望你可以在我心目中留下美好的印象。。
可是现在时间在慢慢的证明你的不好。。
我怕到时候你留给我的， 都是不好的回忆。。
在我对你的回忆好没被遮盖之前，我应该把你删除掉吗？

我不明白

我不明白你这样做的目的是什么。。
我很像坚持相信你做的每一事情都是为了我好。。
可是。。
我开始觉得矛盾。。清醒。。

我已经不再为逝去的感情伤心，心痛。。
可是昨天看到你的举动，眼泪不受控制的流了下来。。
如果你的目的是要我彻底的死心，
那谢谢了，我不需要你的帮助。

如果你要继续扮可怜演戏。。
那请继续。。
我没有错。。
错的人是 你。。

多么痛的领悟，你曾是我的全部。。

What's the purpose?

Why you want to tell the whole world that you kena dumped?
You said this is to increase my market value..
Sorry, I don't need that..

What you did is just like adding salt on my wound...
Is it very fun? like watching drama rite..
Please stop it...
You're hurting me...

~The End~

Lol, finally, it comes to the end~
Show end~
What's your feeling right now?
Still feel bad? sad? cannot breath??
I thought I would be crying while talking to you last nite..
But surprisingly, I'm calm..although there are still some tears drop..

You said that I may be most probably the best gf that you ever had in your whole life..
Lol, thanks anyway~ I'm proud to be the one..
At least I gave you a good memories..
And too bad I can't choose to remember your bad things..
I will only remember the good memories that you gave me..

You said you didn't give me anything,
But actually, you gave me a lot..
You taught me a lot of things..
You're the one who accompanying me to grow up..(although i'm still immature..lol)
I learn a lot from you, I changed a lot too..

Thank you..
I never regret for loving you..
And thank you for forgiving me for everything that i did..
Our memories, I will close up..n lock up as well..haha

I'm strong,
Stronger than you can ever know...

因为爱你，所以傻的甘愿

只因为我爱你，
我会时不时想起你的好，
想起你对我说过的话，
想起你与我的点点滴滴，
而那些不好的，
也被我锁在了心灵的深处，
不让它破坏你在我心中的完美形象...

只因为我爱你，
我会时时刻刻地注意着你，
却又怕被你发现，
所以我都默默地躲在你的背后，
支持着你...

只因为我爱你，
我可以半夜不睡觉，
等着你的一封温馨的信息，
只希望知道你是安好的，
我也就放心了...

只因为我爱你，
我可以不顾别人的看法，
一心只要对你好，
无论别人怎么批评，
我依然相信，
我的选择是对的..

只因为我爱你，
我放弃了我的骄傲，
我放弃了我的任性，
愿意低下头来，
换取好好和你相处的机会...

只因为我爱你，
一切的一切都不再重要了，
打从我爱你的那一刻起，
我已经不再是我了，
因为我的生命中，
只剩下你了...

或许你会觉得我的很傻，
但我傻的甘愿，傻得很幸福，
只因为我爱你~

我只想静静地守侯在你的身边，
就算结局不完美，
我也无怨无悔...

你可以不爱我，
但不能阻止我爱你...

因为爱，所以傻，

我只想对你好...


But now, everything is not important anymore..
You're no longer my hubby..
No longer my only one..
I'll keep you in my heart forever..
I love you..
I really really love you..
But as you said, timing maybe..
You should'nt be my love...lol
Good bye..

为什么

为什么我那么执著？
为什么我还不肯死心？
不是说好要收回我的爱吗？

在我的世界里。。
什么事情都是很简单。。
爱就爱了。。
爱就是很简单的东西。。
为什么要把它弄到那么复杂？

难道就不可以想的简单一点吗？
不可以吗？
你到底在想什么？
什么叫做你一定不懂什么叫爱？
什么叫做你要找回你自己？
这是什么东西？！

搞到我也被你弄到很复杂去。。
要放手就放手！！

Let me help you

Please don't feel bad..
Don't feel sad..
Let me help you to make decision..
I don't want to see you so struggling to make decision anymore..

Let's end...
End everything..

Confuse

I think I know what you're going to say on 12 may..
I know you are going to be a very cruel person...
And say something cold to me..
But yesterday we have a good chat..
Which made me think we still have chance..

I know i think too much..
Forget about it..
Since we are going to end soon...

离歌

每次我都很怕你听这首歌。。
因为你每次听了都会很emo。。
每次都会阻止你去听。。
可是现在你又听了。。
为什么要折磨自己。。
为什么要让我看到你那么心碎伤心的样子。。
我的心很痛。。

算我求你好不好。。
我求你不要这样折磨自己好不好。。
你要什么我都答应好不好。。
我放手就是了。。。
好不好。。

失恋mode

This is what you written in your msn today..
What does that mean?
We haven even talk clearly about our problem
and now you said you are失恋？
It's so unfair to me..
I'm sad you know...

Dream

Last night slept at 1am..
Around 2am woke up by Justin's sms..
Recently quite close with him..
I don't know why, but he is approaching me..
Maybe is too boring..

Then I dream about you..
I already stop thinking of you..
Why you still came in my dream..
Can't really remember what happened in the dream..

After that, woke up by another sms at 3 something..
My fren was argued with her bf,
And nearly break up again..
Wth, today we will have morning paper..
Why they will still have serious argue...
Don't her bf know that it will affect our mood?

This few days I have been staying with her..
Everyday she will chat with her bf through msn, sms and phone call..
Hubby, I won't jealous when see ppl so sweet with their loves one anymore..
I won't feel lonely when you are not around me anymore..
This proved that actually I'm not the possessive right?

My 6th sense told me that you're going to give up our relationship..
My mind and fragile heart told me that I should have give up too...
But actually deep inside my heart..
I still want to be with you..
I still very love you..

I wish I could have doraemon..
Turn the clock reverse..
And back to the sweet moment that we have before..
I know I should stop dreaming..

I miss you

In the middle of the night,
holding the notes on my hand,
but my mind keep thinking of you.
No doubt, I'm missing you..

I know I shouldn't have missing you,
I know I shouldn't have kept you in my mind,
But, you're still the one I love..
How can I just remove you from my life..

I'm tired..
tired of everything in my life..
I dislike year 2010..
Because everything happened in a sudden..

I couldn't take it..
I couldn't handle it..
Finally I understand what is the stress feeling that you are having all this while..
And I know the stress that you are facing is much more heavier than me..

I'm sorry,
I'm not considered..
I should have help you to lessen your stress..
But yet, I'm putting on pressure to you..

Hubby, very tired right?
I'm sorry =(