Lol..

I think I should have stop viewing this blog anymore.
Just now I was reading the post that I've posted the past few months.
Can't imagine how I passed the tough times.
Can't imagine how I typed it out with my tears.
Can't imagine, how I take the pain alone.
Again, tears dropped when I was reading.

If you ask me whether can we still be friend?
My answer is " No"
It's not that I still love you, it's I don't know how to face you.
Can you, don't appear in my life anymore.
If you need help, yes, I will help you.
But it's just in the situation that sms/internet.
Not in real life, because..
I really don't want to see you anymore.
The last thing that I can do for you,
Is ...
I will be your listener forever.
This is the promised that I've given to you.

是时候成长了

之前的我， 很不甘愿
不甘愿就这么结束，不甘愿故事不在我掌握之中。
为了让我自己能放开，我不得不把所有错怪在你身上。
让我自己是多么的讨厌你，憎恨你。。
这些在kl的日子，人人看到的我，是个充满笑容，很开心的女生。
有谁会知道，我还是会偷偷的掉眼泪。。
我还是会听到伤心的歌就哭。
告诉自己说，没有人是为了某个人而活。
放开一个不属于自己的人，才可以找回自己。
我承认，我卸下了这个包袱，轻松很多。。开朗很多。
心存的，只是不甘心，不甘心付出却得不到我要的结局。

是时候成长了，
放下过去，才可以活得更好。
两个人在一起，就是互相满足对方。。
其中一方满足不了对方，离开是必然的。。
你没有错，既然我满足不了你。
你选择离开是对的。
我没有权利怪你。
至少我尽了我所能，做个在我能力范围内的好女友，
那就足够了。。
至少，我很用心的爱过你。。
那就足够了。。

放开双手，
各自寻找自己的幸福。。
我祝福你=)

回忆再次被掀开

我已经把你从msn,fb删除了。。
可是好笑的是。。
我偶尔还是会去search你的profile来看。。

我没有找你。。
可是每次你都会在你失落的时候sms我。。
我故作大方的和你谈天。。
可是每次都会谈到我心痛之处。。
我都会流着泪告诉你我的辛酸。。
我没关系的。。哭过就好了。。

请不要一直叫我找新的男友。。
我的心负荷不来。。
我的伤痕一直都还没愈合。。
我不知道我这些日子的欢笑是真实的，还是虚伪的。。
我真的不知道。。
我只知道，每当我想起你，我的眼泪还是会流下来。。
那个痛，我铭记于心。。

Further...and Futher..

This morning when I open fb in office..
I saw you posted something, but its in chinese...I can't read..
So when i reached home, I faster open fb and checked..
But it's too late, you already deleted your fb account.
Sigh, the only place where I can know your life has been removed.
I know that it's not my business anymore..

Sorry, I found out that I really cannot forgive you..
I felt that I'm revenging..
How to revenge? Revenge by letting you know my life is very much more better than last time..
I want to prove to you that without you my life is good..
I can live without you and you are not my only one.
I want to let you know that you are the one who lose something when we break up.
I just want to prove that it's all your fault.. =( ....

Hmmmm

Hmm..I miss you ..
I don't know why..
Last night when I'm clearing those msg in the inbox..
Saw back those old messages..
Flash back appeared in my mind..
It's not a dream, it's really happened between both of us..
The memories that only both of us know..

Haha, I thought I would never drop a single tear for you anymore..
But, last nite my tears dropped..
I don't know why..
Cried because I　still love you? or because I feel so wasted?
I don't know, and I　don't want to know..

Just want to let you know..
I live well..
Better than last time..
没有人说，没有谁就不能活下去。。。

Can't control

You posted sad things in fb..
You said you're sad..
And I purposely go and post it I'm happy..
Fun right?

Sigh, I thought I can do it..
I thought I can ignore everything from you
I thought I can don't care bout you anymore.
But I cannot control..
Your msn pm written something emo..
I start to worry...

Sigh, it's not my business anymore..
Just don't care bout it..ok?
Yeah, not my business anymore..

请不要再揭开我的伤疤

虽然我放得下。。
但并不代表我100%放的下。。
并不代表再次提起的时候我不会心痛。。
可能你们好奇，我们的分手原因。。
因为表面上看来，我们是那么的好。。
那是因为，我一直都在告诉别人他有多好。。
并不代表，我们没有心痛的回忆。。

今天在看爱情偶像剧 ‘下一站，幸福“
呵呵。。多么甜蜜。。
多么戏剧化。。
童话般的爱情故事。。
让我看得眼眶都热热的。。
醒醒吧。。现实生活中。。
是不可能发生的。。

证明

如果你问我，还为了这段感情伤心吗？
不了，我不伤心，有的只是可惜。。
如果你问我，能放的下他吗？
放了，有的只是回忆。。

我不会为了他自暴自弃。。
反而，人人都问我为什么不会露出伤心的样子。。
还问我，你是冷血的吗？
不，因为更难过的日子，我都熬过了。。
分手，只不过是解脱。。

我会证明给他，给身边的每一个人看。。
我会活的比以前更好。。
我会为了自己而活，不再为了谁而活。。
我会，找回自我。。
开开心心的，做回自己。。
不再被他操控我的喜怒哀乐。。
因为他没有权利这么做。。
因为。。这是我的生命。。

Doggie, I miss you :'(

I miss your doggie but not you..
Just now suddenly your msn window pop up..
You put your doggie's picture as your display picture..
It's a new picture..
I can see doggie :D

I still remember 2 years ago when I first time went your house..
I'm very afraid of your dog..
Until need someone to hold him and let me enter the house..
I tried to get nearer your dog, reduce my fear towards dog..
And finally, I don't scare of your dog anymore xD
Haha, cute dog ever ...
Really hope doggie can wear the collar that I bought for him :(.....

其实

其实，
我并没有很大方。。
我并没有真的那么容易放的下。。

其实，
我真的很想把你从msn, fb删除掉。。
可是没有这个勇气。。
很怕再也看不到你的消息。。
可是。。这是唯一的办法。。

我希望你可以在我心目中留下美好的印象。。
可是现在时间在慢慢的证明你的不好。。
我怕到时候你留给我的， 都是不好的回忆。。
在我对你的回忆好没被遮盖之前，我应该把你删除掉吗？

我不明白

我不明白你这样做的目的是什么。。
我很像坚持相信你做的每一事情都是为了我好。。
可是。。
我开始觉得矛盾。。清醒。。

我已经不再为逝去的感情伤心，心痛。。
可是昨天看到你的举动，眼泪不受控制的流了下来。。
如果你的目的是要我彻底的死心，
那谢谢了，我不需要你的帮助。

如果你要继续扮可怜演戏。。
那请继续。。
我没有错。。
错的人是 你。。

多么痛的领悟，你曾是我的全部。。

What's the purpose?

Why you want to tell the whole world that you kena dumped?
You said this is to increase my market value..
Sorry, I don't need that..

What you did is just like adding salt on my wound...
Is it very fun? like watching drama rite..
Please stop it...
You're hurting me...

~The End~

Lol, finally, it comes to the end~
Show end~
What's your feeling right now?
Still feel bad? sad? cannot breath??
I thought I would be crying while talking to you last nite..
But surprisingly, I'm calm..although there are still some tears drop..

You said that I may be most probably the best gf that you ever had in your whole life..
Lol, thanks anyway~ I'm proud to be the one..
At least I gave you a good memories..
And too bad I can't choose to remember your bad things..
I will only remember the good memories that you gave me..

You said you didn't give me anything,
But actually, you gave me a lot..
You taught me a lot of things..
You're the one who accompanying me to grow up..(although i'm still immature..lol)
I learn a lot from you, I changed a lot too..

Thank you..
I never regret for loving you..
And thank you for forgiving me for everything that i did..
Our memories, I will close up..n lock up as well..haha

I'm strong,
Stronger than you can ever know...

因为爱你，所以傻的甘愿

只因为我爱你，
我会时不时想起你的好，
想起你对我说过的话，
想起你与我的点点滴滴，
而那些不好的，
也被我锁在了心灵的深处，
不让它破坏你在我心中的完美形象...

只因为我爱你，
我会时时刻刻地注意着你，
却又怕被你发现，
所以我都默默地躲在你的背后，
支持着你...

只因为我爱你，
我可以半夜不睡觉，
等着你的一封温馨的信息，
只希望知道你是安好的，
我也就放心了...

只因为我爱你，
我可以不顾别人的看法，
一心只要对你好，
无论别人怎么批评，
我依然相信，
我的选择是对的..

只因为我爱你，
我放弃了我的骄傲，
我放弃了我的任性，
愿意低下头来，
换取好好和你相处的机会...

只因为我爱你，
一切的一切都不再重要了，
打从我爱你的那一刻起，
我已经不再是我了，
因为我的生命中，
只剩下你了...

或许你会觉得我的很傻，
但我傻的甘愿，傻得很幸福，
只因为我爱你~

我只想静静地守侯在你的身边，
就算结局不完美，
我也无怨无悔...

你可以不爱我，
但不能阻止我爱你...

因为爱，所以傻，

我只想对你好...


But now, everything is not important anymore..
You're no longer my hubby..
No longer my only one..
I'll keep you in my heart forever..
I love you..
I really really love you..
But as you said, timing maybe..
You should'nt be my love...lol
Good bye..

为什么

为什么我那么执著？
为什么我还不肯死心？
不是说好要收回我的爱吗？

在我的世界里。。
什么事情都是很简单。。
爱就爱了。。
爱就是很简单的东西。。
为什么要把它弄到那么复杂？

难道就不可以想的简单一点吗？
不可以吗？
你到底在想什么？
什么叫做你一定不懂什么叫爱？
什么叫做你要找回你自己？
这是什么东西？！

搞到我也被你弄到很复杂去。。
要放手就放手！！

Let me help you

Please don't feel bad..
Don't feel sad..
Let me help you to make decision..
I don't want to see you so struggling to make decision anymore..

Let's end...
End everything..

Confuse

I think I know what you're going to say on 12 may..
I know you are going to be a very cruel person...
And say something cold to me..
But yesterday we have a good chat..
Which made me think we still have chance..

I know i think too much..
Forget about it..
Since we are going to end soon...

离歌

每次我都很怕你听这首歌。。
因为你每次听了都会很emo。。
每次都会阻止你去听。。
可是现在你又听了。。
为什么要折磨自己。。
为什么要让我看到你那么心碎伤心的样子。。
我的心很痛。。

算我求你好不好。。
我求你不要这样折磨自己好不好。。
你要什么我都答应好不好。。
我放手就是了。。。
好不好。。

失恋mode

This is what you written in your msn today..
What does that mean?
We haven even talk clearly about our problem
and now you said you are失恋？
It's so unfair to me..
I'm sad you know...

Dream

Last night slept at 1am..
Around 2am woke up by Justin's sms..
Recently quite close with him..
I don't know why, but he is approaching me..
Maybe is too boring..

Then I dream about you..
I already stop thinking of you..
Why you still came in my dream..
Can't really remember what happened in the dream..

After that, woke up by another sms at 3 something..
My fren was argued with her bf,
And nearly break up again..
Wth, today we will have morning paper..
Why they will still have serious argue...
Don't her bf know that it will affect our mood?

This few days I have been staying with her..
Everyday she will chat with her bf through msn, sms and phone call..
Hubby, I won't jealous when see ppl so sweet with their loves one anymore..
I won't feel lonely when you are not around me anymore..
This proved that actually I'm not the possessive right?

My 6th sense told me that you're going to give up our relationship..
My mind and fragile heart told me that I should have give up too...
But actually deep inside my heart..
I still want to be with you..
I still very love you..

I wish I could have doraemon..
Turn the clock reverse..
And back to the sweet moment that we have before..
I know I should stop dreaming..

I miss you

In the middle of the night,
holding the notes on my hand,
but my mind keep thinking of you.
No doubt, I'm missing you..

I know I shouldn't have missing you,
I know I shouldn't have kept you in my mind,
But, you're still the one I love..
How can I just remove you from my life..

I'm tired..
tired of everything in my life..
I dislike year 2010..
Because everything happened in a sudden..

I couldn't take it..
I couldn't handle it..
Finally I understand what is the stress feeling that you are having all this while..
And I know the stress that you are facing is much more heavier than me..

I'm sorry,
I'm not considered..
I should have help you to lessen your stress..
But yet, I'm putting on pressure to you..

Hubby, very tired right?
I'm sorry =(

Feelingless..

I don't know why i can have less feelings towards current problem that we are facing..
Maybe both of us are too tired of it..
There are something which you won't know forever if I don't voice out..
All this while I'm thinking for breaking up with you..
You made me feel insecure all this while..
You asked me what for I want to feel so secure..
It's because I'm scared of losing you..
Loving someone so hard and taking care of someone with a careful heart..
I always scared that I'm not doing well...

I know you well..
I know I won't be your last one..although I tebal muka imagined I'm your last one before..
So I told myself to be prepared..
Because you will leave me one day..
But, I always tell myself cannot give up..
I believe in miracles..
But it has been beaten down by reality..

Every time's argument, I'm the one who apologize..
You think clearly, is it every time also my fault?
I just don't want to burden you..
I just don't want to argue and hurt our feelings..
But your words hurt me a lots..
And I still apologized and pleased for your forgiveness when my heart is bleeding..

Do you know that my heart has been broken into pieces..
And every time I have to collect the pieces by myself..
You will only ask me to look for another guy which is suitable for me..
You are very irresponsible..
Instead of asking me to go for a new guy,
Aren't you suppose to treat me better?
You don't even willing to take initiative to maintain our relationship..

You hurt me badly..
You are the one who made me into cold hearted..
I'm just an ordinary girl who needs care and love..
I'm not strong enough to accept all the hurt you gave me..
I don't know my heart can be sealed for how many times..
But the truth is..the wound are getting deeper and deeper..

Calm

这几天，都很平静。。
心情平复了很多。。
我把这当作是已经分手了。。
也许这样想我会好过一点。。
还是，12 may那天的谈判，结局就是结束？

这几天，你过得怎样？
有没有忙到吃都忘了？
有没有想过我？就那么一点点？
你的心里，还有没有我？

昨天sikai来金宝。。
我陪了他去吃午餐。。
他说你把c902给弄丢了。。
为什么，你都一定要把属于我们两个的东西遗失掉？
还记得两年前我们分手，你在新年的时候把016的电话遗留在cc吗?
他在讲的时候，我心里疼了一下。。

昨天，经痛到很厉害。。
头昏，很弱。。
sikai 晚上半夜竟然问我要不要来金宝带我去看医生。。
我哭了，不是因为他。。
而是，为什么你身边的朋友都对我那么好。。
而不是你。。
我不应该比较。。

不要一句说全都是你的错。。
就把所有问题封闭起来。。
我要知道的更多。。
难道。。我们的感情不能挽救吗？
难道。。你不再爱我了吗？

我不敢抱任何希望，虽然偶尔还会偷偷想一想。。
我知道你很累。。很辛苦。。
真的很想结束吗？
不想让你知道， 我还是会偷偷的想念你。。

体谅你的女人，而不是做个变心的男人

又是一篇转载于facebook的文章。。

她没有安全感,因为距离远
她希望你有时间就能陪她在网上聊天和打电话、

让她感觉到你的存在 和真实感
因为这是你们唯一能做的
也许你觉得她这样很任性
但请你体谅她、她是女人
她需要关怀和疼爱
能多 陪陪她就多陪陪她、

能多给她点安全感就多给她点安全感
让她感觉到、就算你们人不在一起
但是心在一起


她会每 天熬到很晚
为的只是能和你多说几句话
她会每次聊天的时候都提醒你多吃饭
她说这些的时候心里很难过、难过自己不能面对面的嘱咐你
所以、请别嫌她烦、别嫌她唠叨
请你体谅她、她是女人
告诉她、你会照顾自己叫她放心


她 是女人、她敏感
她是女人、她爱吃醋
她是女人、她爱耍小脾气
她是女人、她爱听甜言蜜语
她会在自己独处的时候瞎想、

脑子里都是那些不该出现的画面
像电影一样、闪来闪去
她会没有原因的哭和难过、因为她怕距离远了、

时间长了、感情会变淡变没
她 会一个人抱着腿坐在床上默默的看着一个地方、

猜想你现在在干什么
她看到你的校内或者空间上有女性的留言的时候、

会很酸的问你：“这谁呀？”
她 会时常怀疑你有别的女人
她会在和你聊天的时候盼着你说点甜言蜜语哄她开心、

她听到之后会一个人笑的比阳光还灿烂
所以、请你体谅她、她 是女人
包容她的小脾气
尽量和不该走得近的女人保持距离
时不时的说句：“宝贝、我想你”“亲爱的、么么”来哄 她


她看到一切美好的东西都会想到你
她逛街的时候不会给自己买 东西、但却会给你买东西
她想到一些好玩的事情会想要和你分享
她会记住你们在一起的纪念日
她会计划好一切回去见到你要做的事 情和要去的地方
她会告诉你她爱你、然后自己脸红
她会默默告诉自己、要一辈子和你在一起
所以、请你体谅她、她是女人

对不起

对不起，
我没有那么伟大。。
那天的坦白。。
其实我真的有想过冲口而出的说“我们结束吧。。”
因为我看到了你的疲倦，
看到了你的落寞。。
看到你累到那么期待我们结束。。

那时候心痛到不知道怎么说。。
我很想就结束，因为不想看到你那么辛苦。。
可是理智把我拉回来。。
如果我现在结束，我会崩溃。。
我不敢想象我的考试会怎样，呵，虽然现在也没有好到哪里去。。

真的累了吗？
真的想放弃吗？
真的。。都不爱我了吗？

往事不断浮现在我脑海。。
我还很期待在kl internship你会来找我的日子。。
还很期待你会像以前那样带着我去公干，然后带我吃好的。。
还很期待看电影的时候，我可以握着你的手躺在你的肩。。
还很期待参你的好朋友出席聚会。。
还很期待为你的狗狗戴上我为它新买的狗链。。
还很期待每晚抱着你入睡的时候。。
还很期待你驾车时手握着我的手。。

偷偷告诉你，
我期待着跟你过着每一天，每一件事。。
就是这份贪恋。。
使这段感情加上负担。。
有一句话是这么说 ：当你越害怕失去一样东西，你就越容易失去
看来，这句话应征了我。。

我真的，会失去你吗？

Insomnia

Yesterday i couldn't sleep...
my body was fatigue, but when i closed my eyes...
the conversation on yesterday keep appearing in my mind..
I asked myself..
Should I fight for it?
Or should I just let it be..

I think and think and think..
Think about the consequences if I let go..
It's confusing..
I don't want to see you so suffer..
But at the same time,
I believe there is a solution to solve this problem and keeps our relationship goes as usual..

Malau and Lemon are concerned about me..
I might lose you but i win both of them..
I win good friends..
I told myself not to think anymore..
As it won't help cause i cannot make decision now..

But i already prepared for the worst..
I'm rational, you remember?
I didn't think of finding you..
But I was aware of your msn all the while..
Last night drank again?
Please don't torture yourself..
You asked me to treat myself good but at the same time you are torturing yourself?

Hubby,I don't know i can call you hubby for how long anymore..
My hubby is going to disappear in my life..
Is it true?

崩溃

我爱你。。
这个你很清楚地知道。。
我们之间的问题，从来都没有解决过。。
都是你忍让的带过。。

我很自私。。
没有顾虑你的感受。。
我的直觉。。
其实一向来都满准。。
直觉告诉我。。
一切就来结束了。。

我们的回忆，
将会结束。。
我们的爱情，
将会暂停。。

你知道吗？
我很在意的是。。
你还来不及亲口对我说那三个字。。
可是现在。。
已经不重要了。。

如果放手。。
可以让你快乐。。
可以让你好过。。
我为什么不可以成全你？

我做了刁蛮公主那么久了。。
应该是时候做个大人了？
哈哈。。
每次都是你让我。。
现在让我先让步。。

告诉你哦。。
我最喜欢的数字是 2
可是现在，我最痛恨的就是2
因为。。
关于你的点点滴滴，都是和2 有关。。

你追求了我2个多月，我们在一起。。
甜蜜了2个多月，我们结束。。
痛苦了2个多月，我们重逢。。
相处了2年多。。问题还是侵袭。。

Hubby,很痛苦吗？
如果我放手，
你真的会快乐吗？

我们的约定

我说我不会放弃。。
你却说你想放弃。。
我很自私的要求等到我考完试才谈 。。
我不敢期望我们能继续。。
因为你已经很累了。。

我感觉到我的手在颤抖。。
你要我好好照顾自己。。
不然你会对我很冷血。。
我不再是两年前那个小女生。。
我会照顾自己。。

我们的约定，
到时候解决。。。

Im your supporter....

When you need a pair of ears,
I'm here,
When you need a shoulder to rest on,
I'm here,
When you need a warm hug,
I'm here..

How can you forget you still have me...
I'm always supporting you all the while..
Don't you remember that?

Need you know

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

woah woaaah.

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now

Ooo, baby, I need you now

米修

大忙人。。

昨天，我又想念你了。。

可是又要假装没有。。

给你发了几封短讯， 你都没有回复。。

电话卡没钱了吧？

大忙人。。

昨晚临睡前。。

想你想到眼泪都流出来了。。

很想看你的照片，

很想听你的声音。。

大忙人。。

你每次都叫我找个可以随时陪伴我的男人。。

可是你并不知道。。

我要的人只是你。。

为什么你就是不了解我。。

大忙人。。

我们可不可以像普通情侣 一样。。

来个详细的谈判？

让我了解你在想什么。。

我们牵手一起跨过好吗？

大忙人。。

我很想喝醉。。

然后大大声的告诉你。。

我真的真的很想念你！！

大忙人。

可是我知道。。

告诉你了都没有用。。

因为你连给我的时间都没有了。。

希望是幻觉

我天生比较敏感。。

父母都常说我要改。。

所以每次我敏感胡思乱想过后，都会告诉自己说 ‘想太多了’

对你，我也希望只是我的过渡敏感。。

知道了我的缺点，所以每次我想到什么。。

我都没有立刻找你理论。。

因为我怕会做出一些我会后悔的事情。。

应该知道，你不是一个依赖性很强的人。。

应该知道，我帮不上任何的忙。。

应该知道，我不是你的第一。。

应该知道，我要信任你。。

努力

我很努力的挽回那个感觉。。

我很努力的不让你感到压力。。

我很努力的不打扰你。。

我很努力的企图让你感觉到我对你的关心。。

越努力，就越是感觉到是白费的。。

流了一个多月的眼泪，

似乎你是看不到的。。

你这个大忙人。。

和你预约了一个时间。。

3个礼拜后，也就是我考完试。。

我们来 聊一聊=)

辛苦

我很矛盾。。

我真的不知道你在想什么。。

为什么你可以对我那么冷淡。。

就算是工作忙，也可以问候一句吧。。

可以不要这样对我吗？

你知不知道我可以为了你的一举一动而伤心？

我在等，我在等我考完试的时候。。

我要跟你谈。。

我要知道到一清二楚。。

这段日子很难等。。

有好几次我就真的很想开口吵了。。

我很恨我自己。。

恨我把你看得很重。。

人家告诉我说。。

我一开始就是个输家。。

因为我把你看得比较重。。

你可以不可以不要什么事情都不告诉我。。

我不是很聪明，我没有很细心。。

我不会知道你在想什么。。

我连看都看不到你，连聊天都聊不到。。

你要我怎么知道你在想什么。。

你到底。。

是不是要我放弃你？

Worry

I told you to send me a message when u have reached..

But you didnt..

I worried until find Justin and Sikai for help..

And finally, they found you..

They comforted me by telling me you are too busy..

It's ok, im not angry..

I'm just worry..

I should support you when you are striving hard for your career..

But can you give me some feedback..

I was like..supporting an empty shell..

I don't need you by my side..

I just want you to comfort me by a sentence..

Just tell me you need me..

心情好多了。。

昨晚和Justin聊了一会儿。。

最近都蛮常和他聊天。。

因为从他那边可以知道你的近况。。

我知道你都很少和我谈关于你的工作。。

因为跟我说了都没差。。

知道你在忙什么。。

知道你过的怎样。。

心情，真的轻松很多了=)

他还说你肥了。。哈哈

那很好，证明你没有因为忙而不吃

我不是怪你工作忙而没有时间陪我。。

我只是希望，你有什么事情的时候，

可以和我分享。。

我只是希望，可以为你做些什么。。

Tell me you need me..

Every night when i closed my eyes,

Flashback keep appearing in my mind..

Those moments are sweet..

You'll find me whenever you are sad..

And I'll tell you I will be supporting you always..

But those were the days..

Now,

You won't tell me any single thing..

Perhaps you are too stress and busy..

And you don't wish to burden me too..

Isn't all the guys are the same?

They are being too dominant and won't let down in front of their girls?

I just want you to tell me when you need me.

And I'll be there for you.

I saw you so suffer with your career..

But i could not do anything to help you out..

Do you know what's the feeling?

It's like I'm being so useless !

Please, don't forget that...

There is always a girl behind you..

To support, to care, to love you..

And that's me..

也许，你并不知道我在等你。

一篇转载自facebook的文章。。

我问，怎样才能让一个人知道你在想他？

　　你说，心里不停地默念他的名字，他就能感受到。

　　可我一直在心底重复着你的名字，你却一直没有音信。

　　也许，你并不知道我在等你。

　　我问，当你在等一个人的短信时，你是会调成静音模式还是户外模式？

　　你说，静音。这样，发现短信来到的时候就会充满惊喜。

　　于是我调了静音，于是我马上就后悔。

　　我一直在看手机，我觉得自己有些强迫症了，每一次屏幕亮起的瞬间，我的一颗心就也跟着亮了起来，这感觉，那样美好，那样心碎。

　　也许，你并不知道我在等你。

　　我问，你忙吗？在干嘛？吃了吗？

　　你一一回答，不忙，看书，没吃。

　　可我却发现自己笨笨地不知该再说些什么，再说什么都是多余，再说什么都只会让人厌烦。

　　你生活在一个可以没有我的世界，我居住在一个只有你的天空。

　　所以，我注定是个失败的人。

　　可是，为什么聪明的你不能帮我想一想，我还可以和你说什么，我还能为你做什么？

　　可是，为什么不忙的你不能试着回一些疑问句，让我们的对话更长？

　　可是，为什么你从没有这样的时候，这样想念着我，想念着一个一直在等你的人？

　　也许，你并不知道我在等你。

　　我什么也没问出口，可这不代表我的草稿箱里什么都没有。

　　我一直在写，一直在删，一直在改。偶尔一两条，又会在发出之前的最后一秒被转入草稿箱。

　　可纵使是这样的严格筛选，我还是不知不觉攒下了许多草稿，那许许多多的字里行间，其实只有三个字：我想你。

　　但你却问，还说我没有发，你不是一样没有音信？

　　我说，因为害怕打扰到你。

　　其实，我只是想等你主动发一次，让我相信，其实，你也很想念我。

　　但事实却让我始终相信，

　　也许，你并不知道我在等你。

　　我再挂qq，我总喜欢只打开你的分组，每一次，都能轻而易举看到你。

　　每一次咚咚的敲门声后，我就会看看你，

　　可你一直黑着一张臭脸，好像在生我的气。

　　偶尔亮起来都不会动一动，总要我先向你问好。

　　你怎么总是这么大的架子，这么大的谱，这么大的把握我一定会问好？

　　你总是“马上就要下了”，“你也快点下吧”，“我们都早点下吧”，

　　我们又不是母鸡，为什么总赶着投胎一样要下啊？

　　我等了那么久才等来你的一句话，根本还没把本儿说回来你就要下了……

　　我想，

　　也许，你并不知道我在等你。

　　我的天空今天有点灰，

　　我想你，想你，好想你。

　　不停揣测你心里，可曾有，我的姓名。

　　才发现，

　　原来，你真的不知道我在等你。

心酸

最近在fb很多人都share了那些结婚花絮片段。。

真的很浪漫。。

看了真的很羡慕。。

虽然还没到结婚的年龄。。

可是想必，每个女生心目中。。

都有幻想过自己结婚的那一幕。。

跟你在一起，我时常告诉自己。。

不要奉献全部，因为我不会是你的最后。。

可是很多时候，我都幻想自己和你的未来。。

想下想下，我很怕。。

因为是不可能的。。

到底你在想什么。。

其实你知不知道。。

我很希望，我是你的最后一个。。

I will always be here..

Today saw your msn pm..

I think you are very stress..

You won't express your feeling by telling anyone....

Last time you used to tell me..

But now no longer..

No matter how,

I hope you can know that..

Whenever you need a person..

I will always be there for you..

Because I love you =)

害怕

有时候会告诉自己。。

没有一辈子的爱情。。

没有人可以担保现在的感情会不会是永远。。

我也不敢想象。。

可是，当自己想象离开你的日子。。

我脑袋空白。。

害怕，寂寞。。

伤心，心痛。。

不是说我没有你我不能活。。

而是，我想象以后我的日子里再也没有你。。

我很伤心。。

我多么的希望这不会发生。。

我们互相答应对方好吗？

就算吵架了，也不会放弃对方。。

好吗？

我真的很喜欢你。。

你知不知道。。

不要问我原因。。

因为我自己也不知道。。

如果最后你选择离开的话。。

我会尊重你。。

我不会挽留，

唯一遗憾的是。。

没有机会亲口听你说 ‘我爱你’

心痛

虽然你还是有回复我的msg,

可是，你不会向我说你的事情了。。

每次我都要靠你在msn/fb的status上面注意你的近况。。

你知不知道很心痛？

到底你在想什么？

很痛你知道吗？

Your silence hurt me..

Last night, finally I voiced out some of my feelings..

I said that you have been neglected me for some time..

I said i wish to know what is in your mind..

You told me that you'll tell me when you got some free time..

This made me even more nervous..

You replied, but very cold..

I asked you whether got miss me..but you didnt reply..

And you ask me dun think so much and go to sleep..

Sounds funny..dun think too much?

I have been thinking that for 2 weeks..

This is the third week that im not going to see you..

You rejected my date..

How long do you wan to avoid me?

Do you know it's hurt alot?

I want to go Japan ...

Yesterday my mom back from Japan already~~

She said that it was a very very nice trip....

Too bad she can't afford to bring all of us to go...

So, my dream is to save enough money (or married a rich husband)..hehe

Then go to Tokyo Disneyland~~~ my dreamland T_T

But Japan is not a good place to shop..because its too expensive

This is what my mom bought 4 me..

even the plastic bag is very nice too~~

And...my long lost contact cousin bro bought souvenir for me too..

He bought already and asked my mom to pass it to me~

so cute rite?

伤。。

两个礼拜了。。

你还是一样，不想看到我。。

你要逃避我到什么时候。。

我从不知道。。你有多么的害怕看到我。。

以前不管你有多忙，我叫你一起出去。。

你都会抽空陪我。。

可是现在。。连吃个晚餐。。

你都要拒绝我。。说你在做工。。

做工难道不用吃饭的？

很伤心咯。。

真的很伤心。。

You have changed

Do you realized that, you have changed??

I always tell myself, guys are used to be like that..

Do not expect them to treat you like how they treated you when the relationship is just started.

But, seems like you are getting over my limitation..

Have you realized that,

When you are happy and sad,

I'm no longer the person that you will be first to share?

You told me that because you are busy..

Have you realized that,

How long ago that you actually text me when I came across your mind..

It is actually I am the one who text you, but not you.

And you told me that because you are busy..

I cannot blame you..

Because that is your career,

But can you..

Give me some of your time?

Do not say I am demanding..

I want that is just because..

I am your girlfriend..

And by this moment,

I really really feel that...

I am lonely =(

hmmm...

Feel like watching the movie ' How To Train Your Dragon'

Definitely...I would like to watch with you..

Sigh, ok...I know you are busy..

So i still haven ask you..

Two weeks already~~~

I didn't see you for 2 weeks...

Isn't it very long??

If we are long distance...then is reasonable..

But now is just Ipoh and Kampar =.=

Miss you la...=(

weeee~~

Seems like everything back to usual..

My fren said that I'm too easy to satisfy..

But for me, I feel happy then It doesn't matter..

I requested to have a morning call to wake you up this morning..

Just to listen to your voice since i have been not meeting you for two weeks.

Although it is a bit earlier for me to wake you up at 8am,

because last night i slept at 3.30am..

Still, I think that it doesn't matter =)

I am wondering, why my mood is so easily affected by you..

I should have be more independent, I shouldn't put you as my whole world..

This is the only place to express my feelings towards you..

And I think you will not have a chance to read this blog,

So, I can write anything...hehe=)

After this week, I will be free for assignments and presentations...

It's time for me to have fun and relax!!

I've already planned for my weekend..

I didn't plan for our date..I do not want to depend on you...

If you really wants to see me, I believe that you will find me..

My mood becomes better, and today..

I can smile from the bottom of my heart =)