Insomnia

Yesterday i couldn't sleep...
my body was fatigue, but when i closed my eyes...
the conversation on yesterday keep appearing in my mind..
I asked myself..
Should I fight for it?
Or should I just let it be..

I think and think and think..
Think about the consequences if I let go..
It's confusing..
I don't want to see you so suffer..
But at the same time,
I believe there is a solution to solve this problem and keeps our relationship goes as usual..

Malau and Lemon are concerned about me..
I might lose you but i win both of them..
I win good friends..
I told myself not to think anymore..
As it won't help cause i cannot make decision now..

But i already prepared for the worst..
I'm rational, you remember?
I didn't think of finding you..
But I was aware of your msn all the while..
Last night drank again?
Please don't torture yourself..
You asked me to treat myself good but at the same time you are torturing yourself?

Hubby,I don't know i can call you hubby for how long anymore..
My hubby is going to disappear in my life..
Is it true?